So no improvement then.

So obviously I failed at the 30 day challenge, as always, things came up, I got distracted, and there you go.

I could go on and on about why I failed, work overload, boyfriend and his kids overload, and generally feeling really crappy over the past week (like seeing double nauseous crappy), but the fact remains, another project left unfinished.

I am a serial unfinisher (nonfinisher?).  I start a project with the best of intentions, and then about 2/3 of the way through, a distraction, or another newer, shinier project crops up and said project goes into one of the many piles of unfinished things.  These range from knitting projects, exercise programs, books, organisational projects, time management projects, etc. etc.

I once even made a goal to finish one unfinished project every week until they were all done…I gave up after 2 weeks.  I’ve tried task lists, phone apps and just about every system I can find. 

The funny thing is that I am known for getting things done, and when it comes to getting things done for other people or work, no problem, I am superwoman.  Which brings me to my question of today, why can I be so motivated when I am doing things for others, but not for my own pet projects? 

Maybe it has something to do with seeking praise from others.  When I do something for someone else, there is recognition, a thank you or something of the sort.  Why can’t I seem to get the same feeling when it is just for me?  I think this is something I need to think about.

Day 4, Be kind

Day of virtue - Kindness

I will smile at the people whose children are running wild in front of my workplace, and remind myself that they probably don’t enjoy it any more than me.  I will take a deep breath and remain calm with the other drivers I cross, and let them turn left, cut in front, etc. because maybe they have a valid reason for being so rushed.  I will watch my boyfriend’s kids and watch him play tonight and encourage him even though I am dead tired after an 11 hour day.

Day 3

Day 3 - Discover Your Ideal Self

The ideal me is organised, not rushing around all the time.  I can find things easily at home; I have time for family and friends without feeling like I should be doing other things while I’m with them.  I have time to exercise regularly so I am not breaking into a sweat at every effort.  I can play with the children in my life for afternoons at a time.  My house and life is not perfectly clean and organized, but it is good enough and I am happy with that.  I understand that other people may not do things as well as I would like, but I accept that they help me and that is enough.  Cleaning and organizing has become routine, so I can put the emphasis on my friends, family and home life

3 baby steps

1-Do a top to bottom spring clean on my day off on Monday, treat it like a work for me day, with scheduled breaks etc so that I spend the whole day checking things off my list.

2-Anything not finished on Monday, I will re-evaluate if it is really essential to be done, or and I just trying to be perfect.

3-Schedule cleaning time for next week and stick to it.

Day 2 to become a better me

Day 2, Understanding negative traits

Three Traits

1-More Active/Less Lazy

2-Tidier

3-Less perfectionist

Why do I think I am Lazy?

-Because I am gaining weight at a fairly steady rate, and I am quickly out of breath.  I never exercise.

Why do I want to change this trait?

-So I can be healthier, so I can look better, so that I feel better about myself

What is one baby step you can do today to change this?

-Visit the gyms in Louiseville Friday afternoon

Why do I think I am Messy?

-Because my mom was horribly messy and I never learned good cleaning habits.  Because I tend to be lazy

Why do I want to change this trait?

-So that I will feel more organized, I won’t be embarrassed to have people over.  I’ll have more time in the end, and I’ll feel prouder of my home.

What is one baby step I can do today to change this?

-Scrub the bathroom top to bottom

Why do I think I am Perfectionist?

-Because I seek praise, because I am recognized when I am the best at something.  People see me as good at everything, so I try to be up to everyone’s expectations

Why do I want to change this trait?

-Because I have trouble finishing projects since they are never up to my standards, and I get frustrated and quit.  I also frequently don’t do things because I am not sure I will be able to do it ‘Properly’ or ‘Good enough’.

What is one baby step I can do today to change this?

-Finish one project, whether it’s perfect or not.  Redecorate the bathroom. 

Day one, 30BBM Challenge

I have decided to do the Be a Better Me in 30 Days challenge from the Personal Excellence Blog. As usual with my overwhelming to do list (see more on that below) I started late, Oh the irony.

So here we go, Day 1

1- I would give myself a 6
2- I believe I still have a lot to improve on, but I have also done a lot of work, enough that people have noticed and commented on the changes. So I would say that I a mat least halfway to being the best me, with an extra point for having started this challenge. I have mostly dealt with the bigger issues of my past, and am now working on being better.
3- I want to be tidier, take on less (hahaha), be more active, less demanding of others, more trusting, less perfectionist.